The boy that makes all the girls swoon.

Makin' them feel like they're living on the moon.

You've now affected me all too soon.

Just want you and me alone in the same room.

Just a conversation or two about nothing new.

Your personality intrigues me like a golden hue.

Clever and cute all in two.

Your manner is like a calm ocean blue.

You'll never know that I think I love you through,and through.

Give me a chance, I could love you.

-Anonymous Adorer of You

Caraphernelia

What's So Good About Picking UP The Pieces?

Long Time No Blog,eh?

I'm sorry blogger.com that I've forgotten about you.

Truth is, nothing extremely important has happened in my life

recently where I felt the urge that I must blog about it.

It's been pretty hectic and boring all at once.

Hopefully something interesting will occur soon.

Talk to you soon,

-Shelby

I want my long hair back.

It was nice being shorter for the summer,but

fall is approaching and I would very much enjoy

it being long again.

So, dear hair, GROW!

Just keep smiling.

RUSHING through life not knowing my direction.

Scared and searching all at once.

Simply Green

Simply Green by shelbylee27 featuring diamond jewelry

I chose this outfit for my best friend Amanda cause it shows her love of the color green yet her fun,casual,cute style.

Flower Fall Chic

Flower Fall Chic by shelbylee27 featuring ballerina shoes

Rockin' Ignorance

Rockin' Ignorance by shelbylee27 featuring crystal bracelets

A Year Without Rain

A Year Without Rain by shelbylee27 featuring gold plated jewelry

Walking Into WInter

Walking Into WInter by shelbylee27 featuring gucci bags

Fall Into Wedded Bliss

Fall Into Wedded Bliss by shelbylee27 featuring asos shoes

Vintage Blue Twist

Vintage Blue Twist by shelbylee27 featuring a mini dress

�Viva M�xico!

�Viva M�xico! by shelbylee27 featuring a bib necklace

I love the Spanish style of Mexico. With my Grandmother being originally from there, I have heard many wonderful stories. It's my dream to go and see the art,music,culture,everything. I hope to one day be there during Dia de Los Muertos. In these shoes I imagine a night of dancing,amazing food, and meeting great people.

Prom Is A Teenage Dream

Prom Is A Teenage Dream by shelbylee27 featuring a gold handbag

Green With Envy

Green With Envy by shelbylee27 featuring a strapless dress

Coffee Shop Comfy

Coffee Shop Comfy by shelbylee27 featuring a leather tote

Scary Sweet

Scary Sweet by shelbylee27 featuring high heels pumps

Sweet Romance

Sweet Romance by shelbylee27 featuring high heels pumps

So Exciting....

Blah,blah,blah,blah,blah,blah,and blah blah blah.

Yup, thats pretty much how things are going right now.

I'm more than tired of this boring town.

Oh, and I really have this urge to reconstruct my clothes.

Combine fabrics,make dresses shorter,etc,etc,etc.

Accept All

I love the aspect of getting to socialize with people at school.

Especially people you have never met.

But it bothers me so much when people are so stuck in their little cliques.

Like they refuse to talk to anybody else, and they snicker and laugh at

the so called "uncool" people.

Or maybe they talk to these people but then turn around and just

make fun of them to their friends.

I will talk to anyone regardless of age,gender,sexuality,race,the clothes you wear,

how you look,etc,etc.

Never turn anyone away cause they could be the people that change your life.

I used to be so insightful

Always wide eyed

Creativity pouring from my soul

Sweet hearted, thoughtful minded

Looks for optimism at every open door

Atmospheres change;

people break your heart;

people shatter your hope;

people make you bleed;

people push you down;

people injure your soul.

Soul is heart.

Heart fights back.

Soul shields heart.

Good luck getting past that shield.

If You Really Knew Me

Would you be surprised?

Would roll your eyes in disbelief?

Would you laugh?

Would you cry?

Would you comfort me?

Would you feel bad?

Would you care.

Simple questions that everyone asks themselves. But never get answers.

Struggles of Life

I COULD REALLY USE A WISH RIGHT NOW

Deprived

I feel like a deprived teen.

I hate not being allowed to go places.

Do things that all normal teens can do.

Why don't you just put me in a cardboard box and just

let me out for bathroom breaks,to eat,and to go to school.

It would be a lot easier.

I would make this post much more detailed and emotional.

But I will refrain.

Your welcome.

P.S. Just wait until I'm of legal age. I WILL go to the college that I want to go to.

I WILL go to any concert I want. I WILL have the freedom I deserve.

I WILL rise to the occasion.

There is no stopping me.

Wishing You Well

So it's true what they say, if you love someone you should set them free.

And thats exactly what I did. I set out and got closure, I left off with a good note.

Like sand in my hand, I let my heart open up, the wind took the sand away, and I let you go your way.

I've wiped my slate completely clean. It's time for a new page in my book of life.

Excitement!

I love getting excited over small things!

Things I get excited over:

-clothes

-makeup

-hair products

-meeting new people

-going places

-nail polish

-MUSIC(CD realeases,concerts,finding new songs,etc)

-movies

-TV shows

-rainbows

-thunderstorms late at night

-snow

-good hugs

-spinny chairs

-the smell of vanilla

-Chick-fil a Strawberry Milkshakes

-flowers

-puppies

-panda bears

-Zac Efron

-Jonas Brothers

-Kenneth Nixon

-Robert Pattinson

-Gabe Saporta

-hot guys in general

and many more things.

That is all. :)

Honesty.

Honesty is truly everything in anything you do.

Honesty can fall both ways.

It'll either fill you with joy or break you to pieces.

I would much rather somebody tell me the truth than

dabble around lying to me and wasting my time.

If you would have told me the truth from the beginning

I wouldn't have been hurt or have tried so hard for nothing.

I wouldn't also have taken 2 steps forward then 3 steps back.

I'm truly trying my hardest to be completely happy but its hard.

I am happy but I know I should be happier.

I mean I am blessed and thankful for what I have and really can't ask

for anything more.

But somethings missing.

And I can't quite put my finger on it.

Your Love Is A Song

In all honesty I'm not one to talk about my religion that often.
It just doesn't seem to be a subject that comes across in daily conversations.

Of course out of respect to others who are not religious or practiced different religions.

But I feel this time now is my time to talk a little bit about it.

I am a Catholic. Always been proud of it and never hid the fact that I was.

I grew up going to Church only on holidays and rare occasions, my Mom is a single mom

and used to have to work alot including Sundays. I was taught that prayer was strong and having faith in God was very important and special. But I always attended CCD on Wednesday since 1st grade. In the past year or so I came to a point in my life where I was completely and unquestionably lost. I had no where to turn. It then hit me especially hard when I attended Church for the first time in a long while and I felt as If I didn't know anything. I was confused among all the motions and parts of the Mass. I could barely muddle through a Bible. This year I decided to put strengthening my relationship with God first. I became active with my church youth group,made amazing friends, and attended fun Dio events that will always hold memories with me.

This year especially has been one of my toughest yet. I got the scare of my life actually late 2009 when I got in a car wreck at driver's ed when i was driving(not my fault) I only had very minor injuries as for the other 3 people in the car but it haunted me for months. Anything that flinched at me brought me a flash back. It could of been very worse. Someone was with me at that time and took over the wheel, I swear. There were other things also that hurt me, losing a best friend and having her tell every person she knows about you. I hated walking through the halls and feel like people were staring at me and has preconceived thoughts about me even if they never met me, I felt somewhat dirty. Even if I hadn't done anything truly bad or something that should condemn me to an awful place. I had spouts of depression, feeling worthless and stranded, like nobody wanted me. I have always been a shy person but I became particularly shy this past school year. I was afraid of being judged and slandered. These fears slowly faded throughout the school year. I had guts to tryout for Indian Players and made it. I have never acted once in my life until this 10th grade year of high school. I'm not the best but I am trying to improve. I reconnected with an old I guess acquaintance just recently. I got a car. I got into Christian alternative rock music, and LOVED it. I passed all my TAKS test. I think in these accomplishments God was there guiding me through it all, I know it for a fact because a few of them were mentioned in my nightly prayers a couple of times. I might not be at my highest point in my Catholic life but I'm trying. No, I'm not a Saint nor am I trying to be. I'm just trying to be the best person I can be. And with that I don't judge anyone based on anything. I've been naive and judgmental in the past, and I apologize truly to those that I've hurt. We all make mistakes. We all go against the grain and rebel against the golden rule. I thank God everyday for blessing me with a wonderful life and wonder family. I really can't ask for anything more.

At night when the world slows down just a bit, the silence can overcome me.

Sometimes so much that its suffocating me.

And I pray to find a way, a light, a hand, in this chaos of land.

But i only remember the times of my past joy and the many mistakes I've made at hand.

Him,her,me,you,all.

Imagery of color and melancholy scattered through.

Slow falling tears like pained rain drops.

The truth of it all dearly hurts.

But the loneliness is far worse.

Tired of being unhappy. Unhappiness making me tired.

You know, I've always heard that when things are wrong make the best of them.

But what do you do when things are so bad nothing you do

could possibly make it any better.

It just feels like your sitting at the bottom of a hole, looking up

at everything going on. Yet, you can't seem to find a way out of the hole.

Lately it seems that things just keep going down and down

then one thing comes along to boost me up then everything

suddenly just goes back down. I'm struggling to keep my strength up.

I feel like i've been betrayed,stranded,and hated.

I try so hard to make others happy, and yet it isn't good enough.

In fact, its usually ends up being worse.

I'm so lost in this world, everything I thought I knew is apparently wrong.

At time i want to crawl up and let the world forget me while i try to forget them.

I wish so much that i could go back to being the 8 year old carefree happy self.

It hurts that i cared so much for him and he didn't care about me at all.

It hurts that who i thought was my best friend said so many ugly things about

that other girl and now they're best friends.

It hurts that my Mom and Dad could care less that i made Indian players, they're

basically ashamed of me since im not a indianette,cheerleader,or on a sports team.

It hurts that my Mom said she was glad she didn't come to my first play.

It hurts that my Mom and Dad hate each other and my Mom said I'm just like him,

and that she hates him.

It hurts that I'm completely alone.

LIES

"I hate you"
"I'm glad he isn't here"
"I'm better off with out you"
"I do deserve better"
"I'm glad we don't talk anymore"
"I'm so glad that we never dated"
"I don't think he knows i exist anymore, I don't care though"
"He's a jerk"



i love you
i wish you were right here beside me
i only deserve you
i miss our small conversations
i was aching to date you
it tears me to pieces
you're perfection

My Life is a WarZone.

So, what can i say? This year has been absolutely CRAZY. I have had more ups and downs than i have had any other school year. In the end, i have become so much stronger.I've gotten in a wreck, a best friend has become an enemy, i've battled depression at my worst, completely broke down a few times, made new friends, laughed my heart out,took plenty of pictures, and made Indian Players.

Today felt like a closure. I felt like i saw my past, present, and future. Iclosed my past, i found out that i don't feel the same anymore,you're a great person and all, but it is time to move on.

My present surround me like a bubble, i saw all that i was this year and everything i've gone through.I felt my future. I feel all that it can be through myself, if i choose right it will be the best. From this point forward, I want to promise myself to just be myself. Not anybody else. Be open to meeting new people,be the best i can be and most of all; keep moving forward.When my faith is on the floor and my hope has fallen short, remember that the prize is waiting at the finish line.

You have to go through bedlam to receive serenity.

LOVE

It is one of the easiest words to say and spell,yet it can hurt the most.

Constantly, i think; "when will i bet struck by love?"

It just seems like EVER guy i ever meet does not understand me,whatsoever.

Or i worry about giving too much or giving too little.

It's all so confusing. I just want to go and meet new guys.Majority of the guys at school are idiotic jerks.

I want to runaway for the summer, to a new place with new people, i really do.

I am SUCH a hopless romantic.

JUNE 1ST 2009

can you believe it is almost a year since i met you?

lets recap:

i was 15 and naive, you were 16 and confused

i had such high hopes for us.

what all we could be and this all probably sounds so stupid

but oh well.

we met on unlikely terms.

infact, i had met you before that year and we had exchanged names

and smiles a few times.

but that day was different, we looked at one another

when the other wasn't looking and my heart skipped a beat or two.

we laughed over liking the same music.

the four of us friends played in the pool, and in the odds of playing a game

you got stuck with me, and held me.

you held me long and tight, and i felt safe.

i had to even tell you to let me go cause

we weren't playing the game anymore even though i didnt want you to.

then the next day came, and i was hanging with my then best friend

and you called me,twice. you had gotten my number from my guy friend.

then the four of us hung out, it was an awkward silence for awhile.

then you left to go with my guy friend and my bff came in and asked me

if i liked you and i said yes, my stomach flipped. she told me you liked me too.

that night after i went home i had a missed call from you and a text that said

"hey buddy :)" we talked for while and you told me goodnight.

next day my guy friend called me and said you thought i was cute,

funny, and had a great personality.

that was it. you said i looked cute when in fact my hair was a complete mess,

no makeup on, in a hoodie and shorts.

but there was a setback: there was another girl.

you had liked her for a long time but she didnt wanna date you

because of looks. and i told you i would like you no matter what, for

who you were and you said okay. we texted for awhile

and then sduddenly we didnt talk for weeks.

until one day you texted me and apologized saying that i

was too good and sweet for you, that i didnt deserve a jerk like you.

oh how i could cry right now thinking about this.

and we didnt talk for weeks, and then you texted me hey one day,

and i texted back but you never replied. ever.

so i gave up on you, i gave up complete hope.

so lets looks at us now:

im 16 and confused your 17 and graduating

we act like one another is invisible

we havent spoken nor texted each other since late july 2009

we look each other in the eye ocasionally in hallways

you basically know all my friends and have spoken to them

except me.

but it doesnt matter at all anymore, you dont even care.

you will never ever read this.

you will move on to bigger and better things, you have

so much potential and talent in you, i wish you the best.

but if you ever came running back, i would be here.

i don't hate you, and hope you don't think i do.

i hope you will one day find a girl that will make you happy

and content in life, and that all your dreams can come true.

we obviously, were just not meant to be and thats okay.

you will always be a small memory in my heart.

i was willing to give you everything,

and you turned me away.

i said i would love you for who

you are, unlike her.

why?

you can't even say hi to me anymore.

but you can look me in the eyes.

i dont understand, at all.

so, yesterday i had my first rehersal as an indian player.

it was FUN! it just made me more excited for next year!

i love being in something where everybody talks to everybody,

and we all get along, and we can all be ourselves.

it's also a great feeling being up on stage.

being apart of a great cast and an awesome show, its just great!

The Distance from 'A' to where you'd 'B'

This school year has been quite interesting.

I've made plenty of mistakes than i cannot

retake. I have had major highs and lows.

In the end i probably have learned the most

this year and i learned who my true friends were.

I've also made new friends. :)

But truthfully, i wish i could have a rewind button.

I would rewind all the way back to June 2009

and start out there. That would be beyond perfect.

Unfortunetly, life does not work that way. I have

to live with the things i've done and decisions i have

made even though i am definetly not happy with them.

All i can honestly do now is hope and pray for a

better school year next year. Junior year is suppose to

be fun,right?

Growing Up

As time passes on i learn more and more everyday.

One of the things i have discovered most lately is that

not everybody is gonna like you. As much as i can try to be

nice or whatever, some people are just not gonna be

in favor of you. It sucks, but it is the truth. And sometimes

you cannot be friends with everybody, sometimes you

have to choose what and who is right for yourself that

anything else. Another thing is that i am tired of is high school.

It is rough and tough and i feel like i absolutely do not belong.

I feel like i can't even be myself in the midst of it all, im tired

of the petty drama, the judgemental stares, the jealousy.

I feel like there is nobody i can sit down with and REALLY talk.

I just want a deep true conversation.

It's all so tiring. I'm just ready to start college, meet new people,

pursue my career (whatever that will be), be able to go

where i want, when i want, meet friends, go to concerts galore.

I just have those days where i feel so alone. As if i could just completly

breakdown because everything crashes against me.

I tend to be a complex person by heart

for i have never really been understood. Since i was young

i was always a deep thinker and analyzer, its just what i do.

I tend to love to read, and write, music, and daydreaming.

Perhaps you believe this is just a mere rant of mine.

But its true to what i feel.

Don't get me wrong though, i do love to laugh have fun

and act immature just as any other teenager but its not

a constant thing, you know?

In the end, i honestly don't know. I'm just merely trying to

figure out life day to day in its ups and down.

Such beauty that for a minute
death and ambition,even love,
doesn't enter into this.

A Promise to Burn

i'll keep on fighting,fighting for you

i swear i would give you the sun & the moon.

and today i look back on all the mistakes i've made.

of all of them you,at this point,are my favorite

you were someone new- i thought you were true.

of course i was wrong but i do still care about you.

but when i was there for you, you shut me out.

when we pass eachother in hallways we act as if we

never exsisted. i guess i was a mere temporary existent.

i wonder if you even remember my name at times.

these past blogs are about you, but you dont care.

you rather those naive girls instead,right?

i adore how one of them told me that i did not

even know you. boy, were they wrong.

oh and p.s. sooner or later (its sooner actuallly) i'll have to deal with you.

sudden inspiration?

sorry for not blogging in such a long time, i decided to make it up

by having the one and only joe jonas welcome you to my blog. :)

anywho;
don't you love it when you suddenly see something and get inspired?

i sure do. :) i love,love,LOVE seeing something and then suddenly just HAVING

to take a picture of it cause its just that great.

i adore photography. taking a picture of just one thing a billion

times just to get the perfect shot is so much fun!

on another note things have been pretty hectic but

this spring break has just been UGH!

just a tip: NEVER keep anything from your parents,just saying in the long run

it'll bite you in the butt!

lets just say i have now lost a good friend because of idiodicy.

i rather not get into the grusome details.

but on another HAPPY;) note:

i LOVE shopping, i think it has become a problem,haha.

i just love buying something and then putting it together

with something i already have to make a complete new outfit!

oh and don't you love it when you hear a new song making you

completely fall in love with it? then, you download it and you

replay it a trillion and one times?

i do this quite often; i LOVEE searching for new music its like a hobby for me

if there isnt new music in my ipod frequently i go crazy!

wow there was a lot of love in this post,hah.

well, thats alll for now!

did i mention that i LOVE the jonas brothers? ;]

17 Again

So, im listening to naive by the kooks right now and it makes me wanna watch 17 again because this song is in the credits! Today was a quite a smashing day if i say so myself. Of course white days are not my favorite but Snow White practice after school made it better.

You know what a tasty drink is? No, im not gonna name a soda. But sweet leaf green pomegranate tea is delish! even on the front of the package has a picture of a cute old lady,haha. So movies i wanna see- The Lovely Bones(but after i finish reading the book), Dear John, and Valentines Day. Well, im off to listen to my ipod&sleep. Goodnight!