JUNE 1ST 2009

can you believe it is almost a year since i met you?

lets recap:

i was 15 and naive, you were 16 and confused

i had such high hopes for us.

what all we could be and this all probably sounds so stupid

but oh well.

we met on unlikely terms.

infact, i had met you before that year and we had exchanged names

and smiles a few times.

but that day was different, we looked at one another

when the other wasn't looking and my heart skipped a beat or two.

we laughed over liking the same music.

the four of us friends played in the pool, and in the odds of playing a game

you got stuck with me, and held me.

you held me long and tight, and i felt safe.

i had to even tell you to let me go cause

we weren't playing the game anymore even though i didnt want you to.

then the next day came, and i was hanging with my then best friend

and you called me,twice. you had gotten my number from my guy friend.

then the four of us hung out, it was an awkward silence for awhile.

then you left to go with my guy friend and my bff came in and asked me

if i liked you and i said yes, my stomach flipped. she told me you liked me too.

that night after i went home i had a missed call from you and a text that said

"hey buddy :)" we talked for while and you told me goodnight.

next day my guy friend called me and said you thought i was cute,

funny, and had a great personality.

that was it. you said i looked cute when in fact my hair was a complete mess,

no makeup on, in a hoodie and shorts.

but there was a setback: there was another girl.

you had liked her for a long time but she didnt wanna date you

because of looks. and i told you i would like you no matter what, for

who you were and you said okay. we texted for awhile

and then sduddenly we didnt talk for weeks.

until one day you texted me and apologized saying that i

was too good and sweet for you, that i didnt deserve a jerk like you.

oh how i could cry right now thinking about this.

and we didnt talk for weeks, and then you texted me hey one day,

and i texted back but you never replied. ever.

so i gave up on you, i gave up complete hope.

so lets looks at us now:

im 16 and confused your 17 and graduating

we act like one another is invisible

we havent spoken nor texted each other since late july 2009

we look each other in the eye ocasionally in hallways

you basically know all my friends and have spoken to them

except me.

but it doesnt matter at all anymore, you dont even care.

you will never ever read this.

you will move on to bigger and better things, you have

so much potential and talent in you, i wish you the best.

but if you ever came running back, i would be here.

i don't hate you, and hope you don't think i do.

i hope you will one day find a girl that will make you happy

and content in life, and that all your dreams can come true.

we obviously, were just not meant to be and thats okay.

you will always be a small memory in my heart.