what can i do

to make you say-come back to me.



what do you do when your best guy friend
and a guy that supposedly liked you is ignoring you?

I'm the type of person where i don't handle these types of situations
very well. i over analyze every little detail and then put the blame on myself
even if its not my fault.
I think at this point I'm going a little crazy because i feel helpless.
As if there's nothing i can do; which in reality i don't think there's much i can do.
I feel as if i was held on a string so high above then somebody just cut it; and boom.
& i know "i deserve better" and so forth but if anything i sorta wanted
him to be my favorite mistake.
if that makes any sense...?
i think maybe he doesn't talk to me because..I'm dull.
i mean honestly I'm not an exciting person; I'm boring and quiet.
i guess i don't blame him i wouldn't want to talk to a boring person either.
it's all my fault though he warned me " don't get you hopes up okay?"
and i was so naive and thought oh no I'm not, its gonna be different this time!
its gonna work out.
how stupid was I.
i know i should move on but its like how can i move on when
i wasn't really given a chance?
"i don't wanna see him" is what i keep saying.
well, im lying.
sort of..
cause deep down inside i do want to see him, but then i don't because i guess im afraid?
i haven't quite figured that one out yet.