Tired of being unhappy. Unhappiness making me tired.

You know, I've always heard that when things are wrong make the best of them.

But what do you do when things are so bad nothing you do

could possibly make it any better.

It just feels like your sitting at the bottom of a hole, looking up

at everything going on. Yet, you can't seem to find a way out of the hole.

Lately it seems that things just keep going down and down

then one thing comes along to boost me up then everything

suddenly just goes back down. I'm struggling to keep my strength up.

I feel like i've been betrayed,stranded,and hated.

I try so hard to make others happy, and yet it isn't good enough.

In fact, its usually ends up being worse.

I'm so lost in this world, everything I thought I knew is apparently wrong.

At time i want to crawl up and let the world forget me while i try to forget them.

I wish so much that i could go back to being the 8 year old carefree happy self.

It hurts that i cared so much for him and he didn't care about me at all.

It hurts that who i thought was my best friend said so many ugly things about

that other girl and now they're best friends.

It hurts that my Mom and Dad could care less that i made Indian players, they're

basically ashamed of me since im not a indianette,cheerleader,or on a sports team.

It hurts that my Mom said she was glad she didn't come to my first play.

It hurts that my Mom and Dad hate each other and my Mom said I'm just like him,

and that she hates him.

It hurts that I'm completely alone.